29 April 2021

Evidence to the Mystery

 


Evidence to the Mystery

A fluttering flit glint flashes by

Crimson and bold, yet hard to find

Smart, keen, gliding swiftly to twig

To and fro, staccato chirps the sign

of the feathery presence.


I watch closely from my perch -

set in the trees, branch and leaf

are my window decor, viewing life

breathing in and out, a brief

ever-changing view, in hue, with a clue.


To the secrets hidden in sight -

An abundance present outside and within.

Pressing to our home, secret and delight -

Thoughtful notions to express and pin

as evidence to the mystery.

22 April 2021

Old Book or Journal?

 


Old book or journal?
Both!

Delightful, is it not? I have several of these old books that have been wonderfully re-purposed into a journal with fresh new pages tucked neatly into an old book. Made by About: Blanks, a company started in the Netherlands, using recycled materials and sustainable practices to create something unique with each repurposed book. A good way to use the old is to make it into something new.

I discovered these journals in Oxford several years ago at the Oxford Literary Festival where they had shelves of different shapes, sizes, shades, and genre of books made into notebooks. I felt as it I had fallen into an old library and I got to pick out a treasure never to be seen again. I snatched up a few, and each time to go to Oxford I always grab another 1-2 notebooks. Since they are not available in the states at this point, it feels like a very special item representing my travels in the UK.

This particular little book of English verse (Oxford University Press) I have been saving from my last trip and have just now cracked open the cover to gloss my pen over the smooth blank pages. I smile each time I reach for it because I picture myself in Oxford during the literary festival when books are overflowing from Blackwell's Bookshop across the street out to a covered marquee during the festival where tables and shelves are set-up and people browse all day long for the whole week. It is a come and go spot where I always find new books, and listen to talks by authors given under the marquee. Situated in the courtyard between the Bodleian Library and the Sheldonian Theatre, I am literally sandwiched between books at every angle, which feels like a heavenly realm to me. It is the dreamiest of situations.

So now I sit here at my desk, with my own bookshelves to my right, thinking with a wistful remembrance of my travels in the days before the world changed due to a virus, and dreaming of going back soon. But for now, I have a little piece of that in this notebook where I can scribble all my thoughts with a full and thankful heart.

16 April 2021

Books I Read Recently

 


It has been a little while since I posted books I've read recently. I keep a constant reading 1-2 books at a time, usually. More often now I focus on one book rather than jump around, and I am finding that I enjoy the book more by giving it its time to work its magic on me on a consistent basis.

1. The Tenant of Wildfell Hall by Anne Brontë
This beautiful clothbound Penguin Classic was a re-read for me and a lovely gift from friends. I so enjoy Anne's writings, and this book feels like a cross between Jane Eyre written by her sister Charlotte, and Wuthering Heights written by her sister Emily. The dark, dreary house of Wildfell Hall even shares initials with Wuthering Heights. When a quiet, recluse young woman moves into Wildfell Hall with her little son the neighbors talk and gossip, trying to learn her secrets. The sweeping, moody atmosphere of the northern British landscape always draws me in (it's a Brontë staple). Anne writes first from the perspective of Gilbert, a young farmer who lives nearby with his family, but then the narrative shifts to Mrs. Graham, the young widow (or is she?) who finally lets Gilbert read her diary (as we the reader peer over his shoulder), revealing a terrible marriage and hardships she has endured. She was running to escape that life, coming to her family home of Wildfell Hall.


2.  The Other Bennet Sister by Janice Hadlow
An old friend from college recommended this to me, as she had just finished reading it. This is a diversion from books I usually read. I don't normally reach for spin-off books of a classic. This book tells the story of Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen from the perspective of Mary, a middle Bennet daughter who is largely ignored in the classic book. Mary is dull, plain, and always seems to be cast aside and she isn't charming or strong-willed. So then, what qualities does she have? It is kind of fun to explore the story well known from a different perspective, and ask "what if?" That's what this book does, as it goes beyond the known story to future years and where Mary goes, and how she finds her way in the world. 


3. Stars: A Very Short Introduction by Andrew King
If you did not know already, I am an astronomy and space nerd. I have always been fascinated by the cosmos, and to learn about the stars is always enjoyable to me. Mum gave this to me as she enjoys these Very Short Introductions, and we very often listen to the authors of these books (published by Oxford University Press) speak at the Oxford Literary Festival. So, we usually pick one up each year in Oxford. This year, our copy was ordered from Blackwell's instead of buying in person. Stars is short and sweet- going through the science of how stars are formed through to how they "die", which really means they grow so dense and hot and eventually expand into a Neutron Star or a Black Hole. Fascinating. 


4. The Poet's Dante - Twentieth Century Responses
Did you know this year is the 700th anniversary of the poet's death? I have been embracing and seeking out all things Dante lately, exploring his Divine Comedy and talks, books, and essays about him and his work. This is a collection of essays on the topic of Dante (mentioned by Malcolm Guite in one of his talks, which means I immediately ordered a used copy online as that was all I could find), which was a great exploration and depth I have been craving regarding Dante and his writing. Essays range from T.S. Eliot's famous essay to current writers written when this book was published. I enjoyed all the different perspectives on Dante - some secular and some divine. All angles benefit my own reading and understanding of the allegory and deeper meanings in his poetry.

08 April 2021

Inspiration of Place: Oxford

 


Inspiration of place is strong for me. I observe, think, and sit with my journal filling pages of travel logs and adventures. I write down observations of the things I see and my experiences. My travel journals are so precious because they hold memories of a place in time. At a specific time whilst my feet trod the streets and paths. It is a record of my life in that place far from home - how different are the feelings that rise and the observations of life and space and being.

Each place outside my home encourages different thoughts. Some places evoke so much of the love I have for learning, books, history, and meaning, I find my heart is at home. Some places are so entrenched in beauty of nature I am overwhelmed in my senses of all that I can try to absorb in my heart and soul by being in God's nature so fully. My heart is at home there too.

I can sit and write pages about a place I visited or was staying in. Nuances to notice, details to appreciate, differences to get used to in another culture. The wonder of travel is discovering these things and appreciating them for exactly what they are. The place does not change for me, nor should it. I change to learn its ways. I become more British when I am in the UK. Over years and years of going to that island so many things have become positively engrained in me that they are part of my life in my everyday. If you know me, it's easy to see my love of tea grown over the last decade as well as all things British.

Even the softly rounded ancient cobbles (most awkward to walk upon) I miss (see first photo). But also wandering around betwixt the dreaming spires and creamy stone buildings. Bodleian Library (Radcliffe Camera), All Souls College, St. Mary's all in view as the quiet echo of time rebounds off everything. At this time of year especially, because I have for more than a decade been there each year under icy blue skies to see the tulips and daffodils burst forth from the ground and the magnolia trees bloom into pink beauty. The inspiration of place is strong in me, and my travels I hold dear. One day soon - I remain patient.

04 April 2021

The Easter Joy

 



Alleluia!

Even the darkness is not dark to you.

A new dawn has come - the heavenly realm has broken into our world through Jesus. New Creation is here and now. He is risen!

It is a gorgeous, chilly day - bright and sunshiney - beginning at 54 degrees. Lingering in the light is everything when He makes things new. I am so thankful for this refreshing weather. It comes alongside the deep thankfulness for the Easter joy we can store in our hearts every single day. For the God who came down from heaven, suffering a human death for us. Going through the realm of hell ahead of us and rising today - Easter morn!

Jesus took the role of a sort of hidden king when He walked the earth, humble and love-focused rather than storming in on a horse and an army trailing behind him. He was not what anyone expected, and that was kind of the point. What we expect in this world, God shows us a better way (the heavenly kingdom is often an opposite view of what we see in the world). We think in our worldly way that to defeat is to meet with a powerful blow, but that is not what Jesus showed us.

Jesus succumbed to the darkness. He walked right into it, knowing exactly what would happen. That is how He defeated it. The day of Good Friday became the darkest day in all of history. Humans killed a good god. The Good God, in human form. God let it happen. It was in the plan to redeem us, even though it was humans who murdered Jesus. We do not use the idea of murder, but it is indeed what happened. But then, death was conquered as Jesus went through hell opening all the gates ahead of us. The path has already been placed.

And after all that, we still have the choice to believe and follow Christ, or reject all of it. I wonder in my deepest core how anyone could not believe in the God who would die for them, and love them unconditionally. What other idols or gods out there are dying for you?

Easter is hope - joy - life - love.

Easter is every day.